This is a post I wrote a little while ago before I started this blog:
The tick tick tick of the heart
This weekend I went on a first date. We met online. I was rather excited about this date because on the surface we seemed to have a lot in common. However, life experiences have taught me that things aren't always what they seem. So I proceeded with caution. I kept cool and kept my expectations low. There have just been too many times that the guy seemed great initially and then things did not turn out how I thought they would. So I kept my cool and kept my expectations low. Worst case scenario I would have a nice dinner.
I guess it has fair to say that I am a bit spoiled (just a little bit). I have met a lot of great guys and I am used to being treated like a lady. I have actually gotten to the point where I expect it. My dad demonstrated how a gentleman should act by his example. So I don't get surprised when a guy opens the door for me. This is all to say that Mr J, my date was the immaculate gentleman. He got all those extra points for doing the extra considerate things that most guys would overlook. He interacts with lots of different people for his job so the conversation flowed freely. The laughter lasted all night.
Mr J has what my friend calls "good bio data" ie. He has a good job, good education, right religion, athletic etc. He is tall (6'3) dark and handsome. He is a bit frugal (by his own admission) so I know he has good credit. And he loves his momma. Oh and since our first date he has called and texted me on a regular basis. Sounds good right? Maybe. Yet I am cautious. I didn't used to be like this. I didn't used to think so much. When I was younger I used to dive in head first. Now I gingerly dip one toe in the water and decide if I want to get in or if it is worth the trouble of getting my hair wet. Know what I mean?
On our first date Mr J told me that he really liked me. On our second encounter he told me that if he never saw me again that it was worth meeting me because for the first time in a long time he felt that "tick tick tick" feeling in his heart. He said that it had been so long since he has felt this way that he didn't know if he still had it in him. I admire his openness. He asked me if I felt the "tick tick tick" in my heart. The truth is that I don't know. I don't know if you can still feel the "tick tick tick" after you have built walls around your heart.
What do you think?
I guess it has fair to say that I am a bit spoiled (just a little bit). I have met a lot of great guys and I am used to being treated like a lady. I have actually gotten to the point where I expect it. My dad demonstrated how a gentleman should act by his example. So I don't get surprised when a guy opens the door for me. This is all to say that Mr J, my date was the immaculate gentleman. He got all those extra points for doing the extra considerate things that most guys would overlook. He interacts with lots of different people for his job so the conversation flowed freely. The laughter lasted all night.
Mr J has what my friend calls "good bio data" ie. He has a good job, good education, right religion, athletic etc. He is tall (6'3) dark and handsome. He is a bit frugal (by his own admission) so I know he has good credit. And he loves his momma. Oh and since our first date he has called and texted me on a regular basis. Sounds good right? Maybe. Yet I am cautious. I didn't used to be like this. I didn't used to think so much. When I was younger I used to dive in head first. Now I gingerly dip one toe in the water and decide if I want to get in or if it is worth the trouble of getting my hair wet. Know what I mean?
On our first date Mr J told me that he really liked me. On our second encounter he told me that if he never saw me again that it was worth meeting me because for the first time in a long time he felt that "tick tick tick" feeling in his heart. He said that it had been so long since he has felt this way that he didn't know if he still had it in him. I admire his openness. He asked me if I felt the "tick tick tick" in my heart. The truth is that I don't know. I don't know if you can still feel the "tick tick tick" after you have built walls around your heart.
What do you think?
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